i think i have a fever.. i've been working lately.. and very tired.. yesterday i felt like vomitting, but i did not vomit. Since yesterday, i had running nose and it just wouldn't stop until this morning. I can't sleep and woke up every now and then in the morning. Right now, my eye is fiery hot, and i think i got a fever.. i think. haha.

wah siaaaaa ahhh... hahahhaa. Yesterday my room was pretty 'crowded' at night. I was kinda weeping to myself, when all of a sudden, they just appeared infront of me. Then i found myself, laying my head on a lady's lap. She stroked my hair..  just like my mother. The rest sat around my bed and watched me. They don't seem scary to me, just like normal people, so i slept. The next morning, my SISTER asked me whether 'someone' visited me at night because she smelt something, very very nice, coming out from my room at night(she got this really sensitive nose). She told me that, the smell was just like the other time, when it was the last day of Ramadhan when my room has this very swwweeet fragrance but this time, it was even stronger and sweeter. Haha, i told my sisi tat no one visited me at night, if not, she's gonna asked me lotsa questions.

I came to work, and my manager asked me, what the..? is today our store's sad day? hahahaha... she was sad, i was, my partner was.. everyone was totally moodless. The sales was pretty bad, and there were so many pastries in the pastry case. At 9, i served this customer. She asked me, is this the only pastries left? I said no, and opened up a box with new pastries inside it. Then she said to me, Ok, give me everything you got and packed everything in a separate beg. I was like.. erm.. everything? She said, yes. After everything has ended, she bought $66+ worth of pastries. My manager came out from the storeroom, and asked me, What happened to the pastries? I said, oh.. i sold everything. She was like.. EVERYTHING???????? Then she told me, all my 4 years in starbucks, no starbucks partner has EVER sold everything before. This is the first time, OMG NAZRI ?? Who the hell are you? I just said im a normal human being who has feelings. She gave me a weird look. Everything settled by 12, but we called the company taxi at 12... and so, me and her, had a chat session. She said she want to feedback on me. So i said, ok. She told me that im a good partner, knowledgeable, knows what to do, considerate, caring, self-motivated, self-driven partner.. and she like working with me. Then i asked her, whats ur purpose in telling me all this? She said nothing. Giler. I don't even feel anything when she said all that. I just said, oh ok.

Ohhhh yaaaa!! Yesterday i had the most shocking, crying, frightful, horrific, ghastly experience of all. I was on my way to work, and i listen to my MD loudly. Thoughts were running in my mind, and i didn't even think of looking left or rightbefore crossing the road. I just walk. When i kinda right in the middle of the lane, then i look to the right because i kinda hear a horn of a car. I couldn't move at all! But the car managed to stop right infront of me and slightly hit my leg, and i dropped dead lying on the road. The driver came out of the car and asked me whether i was ok. My mouth shivers and he helped me to the side of the road.  I was like, my heart stopped. It was the most terrible experience of all. I thought, what if the driver did not manage to stop in time. What will happen to me. Gosh.. and because of that, he sent me to the MRT station.. He wanted to send me to Liang Court as an apology for scaring me, but i just told him no need laaa.. then he said MRT station. So i said ok.. Gosh.. i was like.. speechless.. and i can sense him panicking while driving me to the mrt station. hahahaa.. hai...

Saturday i have a soccer match at meridian JC. Sunday i have a soccer competition at Tampines JC. After that, i will come back home.. and see my sister. I seriously don feel like working anymore or do anything anymore. Right now, i just wanna sleep. So tired sia.. hehehe.. kwang3!

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don't believe it makes me real,
I thought it will be easy,
but no one believes me,
I meant all the things i said...................

Doctor said i got a weak kidney. Gotta control my diet. Gave me all the list that i can't eat, or drink. Haha.. what the. There's nothing wrong with me, they're just spilling out craps. Doc said that the second stage is that i will feel my body being pressurised when im urinating. Well.. yeah... it was painful yesterday.. and this morning too.. but i guess, im just thinking too much. The last stage, when my kidney is not functioning at all, is there's blood in my urine. By then, he said it will be too late. But.. whatever? I don't care. Well, its good to die young. Tak menyusahkan orang. Maybe i should be scared? But then, why should i? Haha.. i don't know. All i know right now, is that to spend most of my times with my love ones then at least, it wouldn't be that bad when my kidney has really fail. When there's really blood in my urine then, I will just keep quiet about it.. make them feel sooo happy, i make them feel as if im ok, say sorry for everything, apology accepted.. then i can go with my mind at ease. chaoz!

Mlz aH nak type.. menyusahkan aku jek.. bye wahahaha

Ape ni? aku tak sadar yg byk anti aku.. sape anti aku skrg? ckp ah takya nak secret2.. aku tau lah aku ni tak hansem.. n for MAT_HANSEM lau kau hansem sgt kau takya nak hina2 aku.. aku tak suka.. kalo aku ckp tak suka means aku tak suka..

lalalalllalalla.. ape korg nak tau skrg? pasal fizah? nak bilang ke taknak ah? hMmMm.. aku kenal dier on 2003.. eh? aku rase ah.. end of the mth.. great girl.. hmmm.. ayu pon same.. den sape lagi? hMmmM.. sammie? dah lama ah tapi aku tak tau biler..

nari aku buat ape eh.. tak buat apape ah.. aku bagon kol 6am pi jogging.. whahahaha.. rajin sak.. laallalala.. jubo tol.. dah tu aku tgK kartuN.. mlz nak keje nari.. sape kesah.. mcm nak tukar keje sak.. tapi takpe.. lalallalalalala..

sape bace blog aku skrg aku tol2 hargai.. tapi lau dah bace takmu hebo2 ah.. korg nampak aku slalu hapi je padahal pat dlm tak.. tak kesah lah.. as long as aku ade dier... korg tau sape kan? tak tau kesian.. wahahahaha..

ape aku nak ckp lagi eh.. apape lah.. i end here~ slamatz







~LoneLy~

HaiZ.. MakiN hari makin sunyi.. i miss my dad.. moga dia bahagia di sana.. ape mak tiri aku buat? aku dah terima dia sebagai mak aku sendiri.. ape ni? dia suro aku pass aku nye O'Level aku dah pass.. ape dia suro buat aku dah buat ape dia nak aku dah capaikan.. ape dia nak lagi? nak suro aku terjon diri? nak suro aku kene langgar dengan kereta? aku rase aku dah lama hidup so dia nak aku mampoz cpt ah.. gitu eh yg korg nak? bapak tiri aku ape dia buat? nak suro aku mampoz jugak? ape ni? aku dah mlz nak pikirkan ni sume.. aku tau lah aku bukan anak betul korg.. jgn buat aku camni ah..

ape korg nak korg dah dpt, ape aku nak korg ade pikir? korg mane ade pikir tentang aku.. korg tgk ah.. org lain yg ambil berat tentang aku, for e.g kakak angkat aku pat alamak, kwn2 aku, abg faiz, izad, azmi, man, ashik, zakri.. tulah member2 aku yg sungguh ambil berat tentang aku.. n atikah adik angkat aku yg betul2 aku syg.. korg ade tak? ckp ngan aku ah?! argh!!!!

ArGh ape kau sebok2 tgk aku peh bLoG? Blah argh! wakakakakkahahahakakka! lek2 juz kidding..
Ni lah blog pertama aku.. Maseh azrin.. wahahakakaka.. aku taknak blg ape jadi pat life aku.. korg menyebok je nak tau buat ape?

aku nye suke ah nak tarok ke tak.. wakakkakahahhakakkaa.. may n june aku away ah.. nak tau pi mane? aku tak nak blg.. ape aku nak blg ni kau takmu nak kpo2 ah.. baik kau angkat kaki teroz blah.. i dun want to see ur FUCKING ASS HERE! wakakkahahahakakkaa..

aiN oH aiN.. My Cute FreN wif a Cute face.. wahahakakka.. y tiz must be happening? haiya.. stupid me.. oKlor i end here..

Jap3.. aku cam boring lakz.. meh aku tuliz panjang2 sampai tertdo..

Nari takde fun ah.. babi ah i hate my Lonely Life.. Shafizah.. mane kau pi ah? kau sesat pat hutan mane ni.... argh!! ain.. mane ain gi? ain pon sesat pat hutan ke? wek! hahaha.. Azrin.. mane kau gi? kau sesat mcm ain n fizah ke? .. Wan.. kau mane lak? dah terbang pi england ke? samsiah!!! mane u? u pon sesat ke?! argh!! all my frens gone!! mane dorg gi, tinggalkan aku sendirian!!!